Mothers Day Disaster (s)

So let me try to explain - -
I took Friday off from work- I needed a day - a day to just do basically nothing- not have any where to be- or anything to do-- I needed to spend some time with Porter- and maybe even some time with Chet-- Luckily - my boss is awesome- and let me take Friday off- even though I texted the request to him 45 minutes before I needed to be to work-- he's awesome like that- nuff said!!!

 Friday was wonderful- not sunny like I had wanted- but I felt it was going to be a precursor - to my wonderful Mother's day Weekend!!
Friday night- Porter did not want to go to bed - instead- he insisted on staying up with me and sewing  a "hooter hider" I was making for my cousin!  (I'll post pictures later!)
So it was after midnight before the tiny man and me got to sleep- I figured he'd sleep in- but I was wrong!!-- he was awake around 7:30 that  morning- I was too tired!! But it was ok!!

Saturday started out great-  Chet left to check bear baites- but had promised to be home in time to watch Porter while I went to a baby shower -- Me and Porter got some breakfast- cleaned up a little- then decided to get in the shower- because we were both grubby!!

While Porter was still playing in the tub - - I decided to complete  a task - that I had asked Chet to do earlier that week -- so let  me back up - -

On Tuesday - I had dropped my earring down the drain--

But let me back up further- to explain even more --

I love these earrings- they were given to me by my cousin -- she gave them to me - just before she took my pregnancy pictures- they have 3 rings  looped together -  showing my family would now be 3 --

But back up one more time--

It took Me and Chet along time to make our family 3 - - a really long time! So those earrings meant more to me than - just some random cute pair of earrings!!

So back to Tuesday --   as I went to put them on (I wear them almost every day!) I knocked one of them down the drain-- I tried to get the claw tool and get it out- and knocked it further down the drain!!

I told Chet- and he agreed to get it out for me later that day - - I brushed my teeth in the other sink- not wanting to spit toothpaste on my beloved earrings!

I came home Tuesday night- and no earring had been removed- he assured me it wouldn't make it past the pee trap -- but I wanted it out- I wanted to wear them- I was irritated!

Here we are Saturday - and my earring still had not been retried from the nasty pee trap!

So while Porter was occupied- i decided to do some plumbing-- I opened the pee trap- which if you have never done this- pass -- it wreaks!!  -- I clean mine occasionally - but still its gets nasty - hair balls and other nasty stuff clogged up in there- my earring was in a pile of hair- and funk-- and soo tarnished- it looked black- I was furious!

My beloved earrings - were ruined  (or so I thought!)  I was pissed- mad at Chet for not saving them!

Then I was trying to put the drain back together and couldn't get it to seal tight- I was even more mad- and started throwing the things under neath my sink across the living room!

At this time- I looked out in the hall  to see that the Puppy - had taken a huge poo - - ! Grrr-! I swear that puppy poops more than anything I've ever seen ( a story about the puppy will come later).

The Porter - still in the tub-- starts freaking out saying Poop --

I looked in the tub- and sure enough- he'd pooped ! Uhg!!  (this was not irritating- it actually kind of made me laugh) but on top of everything else- it seemed to be too much.

After getting the drain back together- the puppy poop cleaned- and Porter scrubbed up and dressed- I was feeling worn out!

Chet came home on time- Hooray- I went to the baby shower- and  then picked up a mother's day present for my Mother-in-law

Off to Pocatello we went!  I was feeling nauseous- hungry- and tired- but ok- then about 10 minutes into our trip-- Whammo -- the tire blew!! -- Now a tire going flat-- in your yard- or losing air slowly -  is totally different than blowing up on the interstate going 75--  especially in the section of the interstate we were at!

There was not a wide shoulder to be found- the guard rail kept you from falling into a lava rock slide - -

We pulled over- and Chet went to get the spare-- I knew it would be bad--  its always bad!

I got out the owners manual to see what kind of funky idea they had on changing tires!

Little cars are always funky!

Sure enough- Chet was having trouble getting the jack to work - and low and behold people on the interstate were being Jerks!!  I'm pretty sure its a law - to pull to the other lane when there is someone with flashers on in the shoulder - - but do most people do that? Nope- and the section of road we were at- is narrow enough- and every car that blew by us- rocked the car - damn near off the stupid jack - that wasn't working right any way!- and Porter  was sensing the tension (it was pretty hard to miss through the profanities spraying out from under neath the car!)
I got porter out before he became completely unglued-  Me and him stood on the other side of the guardrail- and watched for cars- waiting to tell chet to roll under the guard rail - or be squished-- I was sure it was gonna happen!-- Also watching for people not pulling to the next lane- and we gave them the big ole' bird!!!  Yup- if you got flipped off by a crazy lady holding a baby on I-15 on Saturday -- It was me- and I don't apologize- you should have moved over!!!

any way -once the spare was on (that looked like a bike tire) we slowly made our way back home- with porter coming unglued in his seat!!

We got home and transfered cars- just as it began to rain -- (it hasn't stopped raining yet!) We went to Poky -and had a great time! We didn't make it home until almost midnight due to some trailer wiring difficulties- but that was ok- still - Porter had missed his bed time again - and we paid for it dearly that night!

Porter woke up around 3:00 and was "awake" he wanted the lights on - and to play -- I was soo tired- and worn out- I just wanted to bawl - at one point- I was sitting on the floor watching him play with his barn - crying crying crying-  I was soo tired and frustrated and feeling like a terrible mother- I was not grouchy at Porter- but I wanted so badly for him to go to bed!  I was praying praying- that he might go to sleep- so I could go to sleep- but my tears were too much-- I decided if I was awake- everyone would be awake- I turned on every light in the house- turned on the tv- and made lots of noise!  Chet finally asked what was going on - he got up and made a fire- because I was freezing! and crying and tired!

Every time I had a thought of - why I wanted to be a mom - why would any one want to go through this-

Porter would lean over and kiss me (which he never does) or snuggle me (which he rarely does!)  Then my heart would ache for even thinking the thought -- and I was increasingly feeling like a miserable failure of a mother- whose child doesn't sleep -- who can't get their child to bed on time - -  and who lets their child get up in the middle of the night - and play ?  The only answer in my head - was this terrible mother!

Sleep was finally found around 5:00 and I crashed out!!  Church starts at 9:00 and I missed the first part! Porter made me Apple Jacks for Breakfast- and scooted a spot for me to sit by him at the coffee table and watch Elmo-- it was sweet- it was just what I needed!

Porter and Chet went to get tires on the car - since Porter now had a nasty cough (I'm sure due to sleepless nights!)  and I went to nursery to hang with all the little tiny people! 

 I was surprised by a wonderful necklace and earrings -  that Porter and Chet got me- I love it!  Then Chet treated me to a wonderful nap - a very long needed nap (porter also napped)  I felt worn out and sick when I woke up - but it was still great! 

We went to visit my mom and say happy mother's day.

As I look back now- it wasn't as bad as it was built up in my head to be- but at the time- I felt like a disaster - - I felt like a miserable wreck -  miserable wreck of a mom and wife - - luckily my sweet sweet baby boy -- knew that his mommy needed kisses and hugs and gave them up (which was a surprise!)

So basically Mother's day was a learning experience for me --  I learned that do not mess with a baby's bed time routine -- and also that - even though you feel like failure of a mother - due to inclement weather and circumstances-- You are the person put in charge  of taking care of that sweet baby that was sent to you- it is the best thing in the world you could ever be asked to do- and the toughest job ever!  Most days aren't going to be a vacation on some tropical island (where I live its never tropical!)   But it is all worth it in the end! 

A huge thank you to my Mom - who has gone through hell and back to keep me safe- and make me the woman I am today !!