Oh and by the Way I HATE YOU!

So it is no mystery, no secret- I hate winter- I hate cold- I hate dark!!

Even as a little girl - I hated the dark -- I remember going into my parents room- most nights- and asking my dad- how many more hours till morning-- I hated the dark and everything it meant !!  I was always surprised when he knew-- how did he know ?  I still hate the dark-- I hate the dark winter months-- and the years that they seem to last!!!

December is upon us- the "happiest time of the year" -- Baah!!  I hate winter- I hate December- I'd totally give up - Christmas, my birthday, new Years- everything to skip winter- and just have it be spring and Summer again!!

2 nights ago- I was struggling with a sneezy cold- Chet was putting together a new TV - cuz ours took a crap!!!

I figured it would be a wonderful night to sit and watch our first big screen flat screen TV- Rudolph would be on shortly and I was sure Porter would love it- the christmas Tree is up- it should be a wonderful joy filled night-

WRONG!!!

After Rudolph - which Porter loved-- Me and him were both so cabin fevery we had to go out to the shop-- we out to the shop- and I pushed Porter around in wild circles in the shopping cart for a good 30 minutes- rotating in and out different puppies-- so he'd stay warm -- and stay occupied- then I tapped my foot on the concrete- like a wild buffalo- until we (me and Chet) decided to take a drive-  couldn't stand the thought of going back intot he house!!! 

So we went and say Christmas lights- got gas- taught Porter how to drive the truck- he's pretty good!! (so not kidding on that one!!)

Then went home- and tried to go to bed- but I'm just soo twitchy!!!

Then last night-- ooh last night- how I despise you!!

I spetn alot of time at JOdi's house before deciding to go home- it had snowed that day and I wasn't looking forward to feeding animals in teh snow and ice and cold -- once leaving the safety of the city limits- the wind pickedup- to a freaking hurricane speed- my tiny little car gets shifted all over the damn road in winds like that- luckily the drifts were tiny and manageable!!! (lucky for them!!!)

I got home and Porter had fallen asleep- despite my constant conversation with him-- so I ran in and decided to quickly feed things then I"d bring him in and wake him up-- so he might go to sleep at some point that night!!!

I ran in - changed into snow boots- and put on my winter clothes -- all 20 lbs of them!!!

I put on my hat- pulled on my hood- and grabbed my head lamp- cuz its dark- it had been dark for 3 hours (it was 7 p.m. by now!) -- and as I slipped the head lamp over my hood- it tangled- and twisted- and I pulled a little more it flipped down- cracking me on the bridge of the nose-  the flow of profanity that came from my mouth was minimal to the amount that was running through my brain- I didn't feel the blood immediately but soon it showed its lovely red head!!!

Running down the sides of my face- I was pissed- pissed i tell you - and sometimes when you are pissed you make bad decisions- I wiped up some of the blood- grabbed the dog food- my knife (to cut the bale of hay) and headed out tot he freaking hurricane to slop some food to the animals- who I soo rabidly despise in teh winter (its a sad thing!!)

I fed the horses- checked on the chickens- fed the starving puppies- - fed their hungry mom - - and the other blue dog- luckily they were well behaved- cuz I was ready to choke a bitch out- by then--  as I walked back into the house- blood streaming down the sides of my face and tears following closely behind- I tried to quickly county how many more nights of this I'd have to endure before  summer would show up again- that made me cry harder!!!

I got in - cleaned up- Karston came to play which was nice- and a good break- got Porter to wake up- almost got a fire going- Damn wind messes everything up!!!

So in a nut shell- I hate winter- I hate wind- I hate dark-- I hate hate hate- that it takes 9 months to get over -- and I hate the way I feel int he winter- blah blah blah - - grouchy - and    mean!!!

Just this morning I had an argument with Chet over pants- seriously jeans-- 

so as for me and my house- we hate winter--   we have cabin fever already and we need some ideas on how to curb that nasty winter blues- that have already kicked me right in the face- (look at the bridge of my nose for proof!!)

So any ideas on how to get rid of cabin fever twitchyness for me, a 2 yr  and sometimes even Chet!!!

Would be soo much appreciated!! and

if you come to my house- and I'm covered in blood and tears-- don't be alarmed-
Its justa nother day in paradise!!-- Living the Dream I tell you!!!