Too Attached??

I have to admit-- I was the worst about saying - - - "My Kid Won't Do That"  -- prior to me having a kid of course -- or "I won't do that"  - - you know people without kids -- are experts-- no joke-- I knew it all -- until the day the doctor handed Porter to me-the nurse loaded me up in the wheel chair and shuffled me out the front door of the hospital - I thought -- seriously??? - - You are gonna make me take him home-- what do I do with him???  - You must be joking-- I know nothing about babies and/or kids!! I was terrified!

But through many sleepless days and nights-

and help from some of the best mommies around -


I got through the first year -- and check it out Porter is still alive-- Must have done something right??!!


I as adamant - prior to Porter - - that my kids would not sleep in my bed- -but when it became apparent that with that rule-- it meant -I wasn't sleeping in my bed either-- I gave in -- and let Porter sleep in my bed -- snuggled between me and Chet -- for months!! -- It was nice- I loved it! I loved watching him drift off to sleep!!

Now -- I know he is big enough   - - it has been proven he can do it - - to be put down in his crib-- and drift off to sleep himself - - its a fight- but he can do it!! I however --can't!!!!  What is wrong with me-- that should be the easy out-- put him down -walk away -- and be done with it! Nope!! I can't !!

I love to hold him --watch him finish his bottle - snuggle into me- and drift off to sleep !!  Twitch a little and go out soundly! (my baby is the wiggliest sleeping baby!!) Then I can lay him down- cover him up-- and go to bed -- knowing he is happy, tucked in and sleeping! 

This becomes a detriment - to those of my wonderful family - who watch Porter for me- because they have to deal with the screaming-- when they lay him down!! (Sorry guys!!) 

I have contemplated trying to just lay him down -- but I figure - - -
He'll grow out of this stage-- this wanting - - no letting me hold him while he goes to sleep - - At some point - his wife will ask me to put down her husband- so they can go to bed -- and at that time-- I will -- I think - --
But for now - - you know I just like to snuggle him-- kiss on him -- and watch him drift off to dream land - - -

Does that make me one of those super attached -- can't let go of anything -- can't let a baby grow up -- type moms??  Oh well huh -- for now it works for me!!